heart break

As I scratch the blade along my skin
I say to myself “this cut is for you”
As the blood slowly trickles down my arm
I begin to shake and grab a tissue

I only wanted to make you happy
Why don’t you understand?
Id do anything to make you happy
I just wanted you to take my hand

Words you say
Pass through me deeper and deeper
Like the cuts and the scars that follow
With me forever, a lifetime keeper

Sometimes I think I try too hard
As it mostly gets thrown back into my face
I’m sorry for trying to do the right thing
Ill just slowly disappear and find a new place

I know someone out there,
There is the perfect guy for me
Who will appreciate everything I do for him
And his love for me will be easier for me to see

One day ill stop the pain I cause myself
And find someone to support me
But ill carry on till that day
With scars you’ll never see

I’m finding it hard to write now
Tears are rolling down my face and my hands are shaking
Ill have to stop now
As I’m finding it heartbreaking